For the very first time ever I had a year where death played an impactful role.
Sure I’ve had other years where people died.
It’s just that this year I’m truly touched by it.
My parents’ neighbor.
And a 41 year old acquaintance.
Especially the last one touched me deeply.
My dog his time had come.
The neighbor was in his 70′s.
Some people say that’s too young.
I used to agree.
Until someone I knew well died at age 41.
Then dying in your seventies sounds like a good deal.
I didn’t know the guy very well.
A friend of friends.
Facebook friend though.
And because of that I actually got to know him quite well.
I even revisit his timeline sometimes.
And I cry.
Because of the joy.
His joy de vivre.
20+ year long battle.
And still smiling.
Always doing everything he could.
Fighting til the very last day.
And unfortunately losing.
I guess that’s what hit me the most.
That despite doing everything right, you can still lose.
That life sometimes truly is a bitch.
Or an asshole if life’s a man.
And the realization I’ve got no fricking idea how to deal with this.
The only thing I can do is pay tribute to this wonderful guy.
So Jeffrey, this one’s for you my friend.
I know it’s not a lot, but If you can read blogs in heaven, realize that I’m thinking of you.
And that you’ll always be an example for me.
Especially when things go wrong.
I sincerely hope I’ll have the courage to stay as positive as you when times get rough.
And for that I am thankful to you.